I have a political stand.

I could not sleep because I was thinking of it. I finished my English Story (which is, by far, the worst form of treachery I have every done---to myself.) 1:30 AM. And I'm revising the whole thing. Back to ground zero. I hate it. I hate the way I wrote about frivolous interests of friggin' teenagers when I had the chance to write something completely out of my grasp---politics. I could've written something like...

There's a wedding. The wedding is cancelled. Reason: Bride doesn't like the groom's coat, or the mother-in-law's red hair (it might be passed on to her children). Result: No happy ending for anyone.

Symbolism: You shouldn't get fucking rid of someone just because of her relationships or trivial matters that she can't attend to. The in-law couldn't dye her hair black because she fixed the stupid wedding. You should not get rid of GMA because she has a stupid and greedy husband. I have no facts, yes. I don't research, that's a given. But I have my opinion. (Which, I admit, not as strong as figures but that's besides the point.) I believe that focusing on our economy is a WHOLE lot better than fixing out political crisis. Can't we just let the government do its job? Can we not see that the more we protest for reasons we do NOT understand, the more we go down? I believe in Jun Lozada, that there is corruption in the government. THAT IS TRUE. It was never a lie. I admire Jun Lozada for speaking up. I do not like the people's reaction to it. It's EDSA 3 all over again. People over-reacting. Filipinos fighting for the "Filipinos", when in fact, said "Filipinos" are just a minority. A fucking minority playing whose strings are pulled by their authoritarian and evilly intelligent leaders.

Can't we let go, for once? And see the light.

Do we always have to criticize?

CAN WE NOT SEE THAT PEOPLE POWER SHOULD TAKE ON ITS NEW MEANING. The power to wake up the innate goodness in us. The power to transform lives. The power to live the live the friggin' WORD and transform the world. Once we're done with ourselves, THEN the country will follow. Once OUR morality is fixed, we CAN have the right to demand morality from our government. It's the pot calling the kettle black all over again.

And this was supposed to be a three-liner post, but I could not stop myself.

I wonder how it feels to BE THERE. TO EXIST IN THAT WORLD. I'm so far. I'm moving in a week to a house 2 minutes away from here. I went there last Sunday, I went to the balcony. I saw all the rice fields of Teresa. I saw the whole town. Yes. The whole town. And that's it. I love the view, but it limits me. I can learn a lot from all the workers in the field everyday, but before I can do that, I have to understand the bigger picture. Then I can start changing my ways. We're not affected by this political crisis. Who are affected? Our classmates who are sons or daughters of politicians. But me? No. I am not affected. Gia Salindong said, POLITICS is like jumping into mud, whether you like it or not, you will get dirty. However, water exists. Water exists for us to clean ourselves, to repent.

In Jesus lies the living water. Not in projects like Chico Dam. Nope. Not in the destruction of individuals who have done their best to uplift the country's economy. Not in the murder of thousands of innocent children on the street. Not the forceful demands of going back to the streets. The streets gave us nothing but a path back to ground zero. We do not want ground zero. We want UP.

GEOMETRY, HERE I COME. Or rather, ENGLISH AND HEALTH. I AM DONE WITH GEOMETRY.